Broken

How am I supposed to tell you that
I'm broken?
With your trust in me intact and your heart wide open
It would kill me to tell you

You think I'm so strong
But I've been messed up for so long
And it would be wrong,right?
To let you keep believing in me?
While all the while I'm deceiving you
It would hurt me
It would hurt you,too

Because how can a broken person protect you?
They can't
I can't
But I have to

Keeping you alive is what stops me from wanting to die
And if it crushes me to see you cry,how would you feel if I cried?

You'd comfort me,I know
But you'd lose that innocence
That I've worked so hard to protect
You're going to find out someday and when you do,
What happens next?
You'll still love me but it won't be the same
And the way you love me now is what keeps me sane
I can't
Won't
Don't dare tell you I'm broken
Not yet